Well, it happened...
The nightmare of all women...
I was on the phone with my boyfriend of a year and a half talking about a man's dwindling attraction to his woman after marriage due to her "letting herself go" i.e. gaining excess weight. Then I did it. I asked the unthinkable question.
"Be honest. Are you any less attracted to me since I've gained weight?" His brave reply, "Wow! That was unexpected. Well, I mean, I'm still attracted to you, just not as attracted to you before the weight gain."
OH MY GOSH!!!!
As I sat there in total shock and disbelief several thought flew through my head. 'Wow, really? Like, seriously, did he just say that?'
After the shock wore off and the tears stopped forming in my eyes I realized I was grateful for the honesty, although still hurt and embarrassed by the reality. I am 19 years old. This is the time my body is suppose to be BANGING! And to loose attraction from my man after only a year, even it is just a little bit, is horrible!
The next day I woke up with burning questions in my head and a denial in my mind. It wasn't until I weighed myself and found I had gained 20 pounds since my graduating high school weight (when I actually met my man) that it all became real.
Twenty pounds in two years is a scary reality. True, I am a college student with a full course load at a Big Ten School dealing with the stresses of financial, professional development, and other student obligations, but that is still not good...at all. Especially since all my life I have been small, size 3, and never gained more than 3 pounds to stay in the range of 125-128. This was my natural weight, without working out and eating whatever I wanted. But now, reality has set in. I dont have my kid metabolism and must start taking care of my body and weight as a woman.
So here I am, writing this blog as a keeper and tracker of my progress. My classes at Michigan State start back on Monday, January 10, 2011, and I will make my first attempts at resisting the fattening temptations of a college student: the skipping of breakfast, the constant eating at the cafeteria, the refusal of exercise- all caused by tiring schedule of studying, working, partying, and sleeping in on a college campus.
Over the next 16 weeks I will chart my challenges and success of losing these extra 20 pounds to undo in one semester what has taken me 3 to get. From counting calories, making schedules, and exercising I will record for you to witness me shed the pounds and get back to my most "attractive" weight for my man, my health, and most importantly for me! You can feel free to join in too as together we train our bodies to get it back so we can attract!!!
I'm glad to take this journey with you!
<3
Week 0
Current Weight: 144 lbs.
